The Upper Room Diaries

Category: Studies

Being Comfortable with Your Unique Call

Then Saul dressed David in his own tunic. He put a coat of armor on him and a bronze helmet on his head. David fastened on his sword over the tunic and tried walking around, because he was not used to them. “I cannot go in these,” he said to Saul, “because I am not used to them.” So he took them off. Then he took his staff in his hand, chose five smooth stones from the stream, put them in the pouch of his shepherd’s bag and, with his sling in his hand, approached the Philistine. (1 Samuel 17:38-40)

Who would have thought that a small boy could slay a giant with just a sling and a few stones? David wanted to use a slingshot, but Saul wanted him to use his armor and weaponry. Everyone of that time knew that Saul’s advise was obviously better, but David knew that the popular choice do not fit him. He went ahead with what he felt comfortable in, trusted the Lord, and to the surprise of many, he gained success.

God wants to use us, but many times God did not pin-point the “how”. The variety of methods exponentially increases as globalization and technology matures. What that is not possible five to ten years ago, may be the most effective thing today. Inversely that which was effective five to ten years back may not necessarily be effective now.

This however provide the framework for a problem. Often times it is a tendency for us to look into the past and use that as a measure of success. Many times we do this to give ourselves some sort of identity which is recognizable by people. Some times we do this to ourselves, other times people project their thinking onto us. Often, this is an unconscious effort.

Let me give you an example. A traditional missionary is one who goes overseas and live among the community he or she ministers in. It was known to be the most effective form of missions as they are the ones who would be able to blend into the way of life and understand the thinking patterns of the community they are in. Today, given globalization and technology, who says that only a traditional missionary can be effective? It largely depends on the strata of the society you are reaching. If you are aiming the upper echelons, many are tech-savvy, financially influential and well versed in English.

Let me give you a local example. A pastor was known to be one who preaches and teaches on the weekends. However today, we can do the same online and almost at every moment! And the format need not be the same as the usual pupit-sermon. Today, gospel content could be found on msn, sms, facebook, twitter, in text, video, graphics, songs, dance, the possibilities are just endless! I learnt in my preaching class that the term “Preaching” is basically a time of proclamation with regards to the Word of God; and “Teaching” is a process of guiding people to discover the content on their own. It did not say how we are to proclaim or guide. It is the society that projects their understanding of the terms to be one of weekend pulpit speaking, or in the case of “Teaching”– classroom speaking. In other words, I could possibly be preaching to you now as you are reading this blog. Everyone can do the same!

Given these two examples, we must not limit our potential to peoples’ understanding of the terms. I mean, aren’t we are all seeking to obey God? Are we not giving ourselves to Preaching, Teaching and to Missions just like how our pastors does it? Do we even need a title to be spiritual? No. God wants all of us to be like Jesus . . . and Jesus does all the above-mentioned.

Jesus tells us to fulfill the Great Commission but he left it to us to strategize. I (wildly) presume that Jesus gave us this freedom because in his all-knowing, he knows that times change. Thus the methods should change while the message stays the same. People, do not be a Saul. Do not be someone who seeks to mould people into his or her image. Be brave and be like David, who dared to stick to what he is good at, rather than allowing himself to be moulded into an image which he is not. When we become comfortable with who we, the power of God flows through us in a greater and more powerful manner.

One small step for Matthew, one giant leap for Matthew-kind.

Last night, through a short public ceremony, I received my Exhorter credentials from the Assemblies of God, Singapore. I regard this as a significant milestone. Looking back, never did dreamt of coming so far. Never would I dream of obeying God to this extent — forsaking my dreams, enrolling into Bible college, going through the grueling Greek modules, and experiencing the reality of God through the many research/exegesis papers that I have been made to do.

As I recall back six years ago, all I wanted was to be a world-class designer and to set up my own design studio so that I can choose my own clients. However, ever since God called me into ministry, I have literally exchanged my old friendships for new ones forged in AGBC, largely due to their non-understanding of my calling. It hurts, but I guess God gave me back so much more. I believe that the friendship forged in AGBC goes a long way, knowing that all of us would eventually become ministers somewhere someday.

I guess there is something pensive about Graduation that makes me reflect on the jungle path that I had bashed through. When God calls, I guess sometimes you enter a place blind, blind to the knowledge of what is in store for you ahead. For me, the shift from Design to Theology was a world of difference. I recall failing my first ever module. Oh the anguish that I felt because I do not know how to write a paper and finding out that it was too late to withdraw from the module! All I know from my design background was to draw, but writing, to me, was just way too tough. I had to learn to express my thoughts in words rather than from drawing figures. It took me quite awhile to adapt to a writing habit. Anyways, I took one full year to find the courage to take up modules again. Imagine hearing a direct instruction from God to go to Bible college and then get a “F” grade at the very first module! It was really quite a discouragement as the “F” was permanent . . . so much for GPA.

The Bachelors of Theology in AGBC contains two tracks, which the student then would have to choose one of them. It could be understood as something akin to a major. There is the Ministerial Track, and the Theological Track. The Ministerial Track basically trains the student to be proficient in doing ministry, thus an extended number of Ministry (the how-to) modules. Then there is the Theological Track which requires the learning of Greek and taking an extended number of Systematic Theology (the why) modules. This would result in the student being able to articulate how bits and pieces of Christian thought are supposed to link.

Upon approaching my second year of study, when I was to choose my Track, I heard directly from God to pursue the Theological Track. As back then I was still struggling with my transition from Design to Theology, from drawing to writing, from seeing colours to memorizing information; I had people telling me that I do not seem to be built for the Theological Track, which requires all the things I was never good at; bottom-line, people do not see the teaching calibre in me. After all, if I could score better doing the Ministerial Track, why not? However I decided to obey God and take the plunge by doing the Theological Track . . . not that I am not already in a plunge by being in school!

I eventually figured out the truth about myself. It was not that I will never be good at doing what I would be doing, it was that I took longer than normal people to transit. This naturally affected my grades. I was scoring C-’s and B-’s for my first year to the first semester of my second year, and after that A’s and B’s for my subsequent modules. I finished Greek 1 at C-, Greek 2 at B-, and finished Greek Exegesis at A. Heh, to think that I took so long to find my learning pattern, sheez.

So yesterday I got my credentials. That was by no means that I have graduated. That was not a graduation, but it was something that I applied for so as to make my future ministry easier. However this milestone bares the meaning of me looking forward to three areas of my life. The first of them is a no-brainer. I look forward to my launch into Ministry. Excitement begets! Will my first few steps be smooth? Will I hit the ground running? Will I finish all my school assignments before work begins? With bated breath, I look forward to answering these questions.

Besides Ministry I am also looking forward to Marriage. Oh my gosh, I love Serene with all my heart. I am so immensely grateful to God for reserving her for me to love and cherish. All I want to do now is to marry her. However, will I have the money to get married? Will I have the money to support her after marriage? How will God use us after we become one? Again with bated breath, I look forward to answer these questions. Oh, by the way, God actually spoke to someone when he was praying for us. He was so moved and offered to pay for our engagement — meaning the ring, and the meal with of both sides of our family, just a simple one . . . and there seems to be options of places to stay after we are married. Probably even a three-room flat to call our own. Yes, fully paid for. Besides that, there are still many things uncertain. As we deal with the uncertainty, please do continue to pray for us. When we do get married, it would be a giant miracle, and a grand testimony to the grace of God (:

Ministry, Marriage, and the last one is Master. I seek to know my God. I believe that the pursuit of knowledge is endless. Not that I know many things, but I suppose at the moment, I felt that I have understood enough to articulate my faith in a manner that satisfy a general seeking crowd. Now, I want to pursue Spirituality. I guess I would phrased it more accurately if I said it in mandarin “不只读神学, 我要学神.” This meant that I do not only want just to learn Theology, I want to be what I am learning about. There is this intense craving to experience God in manners which I have not experienced before. I have began to Fast, I have began to pray for extended hours, I have began to apply the knowledge that I have gained to real-life situations in the mission field and in Singapore. This seems to craft my philosophy in ministry — I aim for people under my care to have a deeper and more meaningful relationship with God.

So now as I am finishing up my last few lingering assignments for school, there is this sense of bittersweet emotional entanglement. I wonder what would be last words of my last paper be . . . I think I have more or less decided. I would most probably word it as “Give God Glory.”

Amen!

Community

For the past two weeks I have been going through a class in school doing the book of Romans. Throughout the duration of the class, the concept of Community burned deep within me. I cannot help but compare the apostle Paul’s paradigm of Church to the state of the present Church. People today talk a lot about their own needs. We hear very loudly the voices of individual preference. There is even talk of the Internet Church or on-line Communion services “from the comfort of your own couch.” But seriously, where is the community spirit in all of this? People come to church, then jot right out of the service hall before the service even ends. Perhaps they feel that the sermon is the most important portion of the service; but is it? Maybe it is the urban culture that makes us so preoccupied with our own lives that we cannot afford to be involved in the life of others.

Back in the Old Testament times, in Exodus 36:1-6, when God instructed Moses to construct the Tabernacle, it is observed that the people freely offered gifts and materials for the Tabernacle, that they had to be restrained from bringing any more. The offerings were more than sufficient for all the work to make the Tabernacle. In the New Testament Church it was observed too that believers contribute what they have to minister to one another in the church. In Acts 2:44-45, the author describes that believers began selling their possessions, and were sharing them with all, as anyone might have need. It has been a pattern throughout the ages that believers will, and thus should, contribute what they have to build up the Kingdom of God.

The version of Christianity back then is vastly different from the Christianity of today. Hence I am so ever convicted that believers need to be reminded that Christianity is about Community, not the individual. If we would ever lose the “Community” element in Christianity, then Christianity would cease to be.

“Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves” – Romans 12:9-10

I am convinced that only the humble would truly understand the concept of Community. I am reminded that if I think highly of myself, I will think naturally think lowly of others; and this thinking would then translate itself into my action toward others. The key therefore, is to think lowly of myself. Be humble. The humble would acknowledge that they need the community. The proud would rather run solo. Of course, people can be overly spiritual and give the correct answers; but ultimately, their attitude toward others speak of their heart condition.

In the present Church, the concept of “Sincere Love” is very much like a book left on a shelf. Periodically, someone takes it down for referencing or to troubleshoot a particular situation. Very few people actually bother to carry it with them because it is just too heavy and troublesome. Throughout my time in school, one of the most important lessons I have learnt is to put “People before Paper”, and “Ministry before Mission.” Many secular teams are agenda driven, but I have grown to strongly believe that Christian teams should be people driven. When working as a team, it is always easy to use the team to push an agenda forward. However it takes a paradigm shift to put people first, and task second. As a minister, I must never allow the task to consume me that I forget to minister. Ministry is of prime importance, and I must always remember to keep it front and center. It is almost hypocritical to finish a project without ministering to your own teammates. It benefits only the individual self but it does not benefit the life of the people working with you. Thus this makes their serving in the team become more like doing a dead-end task rather than something they would actually be able to grow spiritually in.

I guess overall, everything voices down to humility. In my previous post, I have written about the social order of Jesus’ day. The head of the family, would have the most say in all matters while the rest are effectively having their opinions silenced due to perceived lack of both experience and education. The worst of the lot were the Children. However Jesus, in Matthew 18:1-5 told the people that “whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.” The way to God is Humility. To have Humility means to carry around the heavy book of “Sincere Love”. This book is heavy because it bares the heavy burden of devotion to one another.

This is what I believe Christianity to be, from the perspective of apostle Paul. So, what is your version of Christianity? What would you do to contribute to your Christian community? Sure, there is definitely time to chase God on your own. But never ever forget that a much greater emphasis of Christianity is about chasing God together.

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