I am Willing

by Matt

我願意 By Faye Wong

愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你忘记我姓名
就算多一秒停留在你怀里
失去世界也不可惜
我愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你被放逐天际
只要你真心拿爱与我回应
什么都愿意
什么都愿意为你

(English Translation)

I am willing for you, I am willing for you
I am willing to forget my name for you
Even if it is just an extra second in your embrace
losing the world (I will) have no regrets
I’m willing for you, I’m willing for you
I’m willing to be left at the end of the world for you
As long as you are sincere and reciprocate with love
Anything (I’m) willing
Anything (I’m) willing, for you

Although I am not a big fan of anything Mandarin, I have got to admit that some of the most intense emotions are best expressed through that language; this makes those songs very loaded in meaning while not losing its poetic quality. While I am probably not the best person to comment on anything Mandarin, I thank God that at least I know enough to say which one has touched my heart.

It was a recent wedding that this song was sung. To think that this song has been around for so long but yet it was only then that I got to hear it for my very first time; and wow, it was awesome! I guess that was the song that really kicked-in for me, for the entire time of the wedding. I guess this song kind of stuck with me because I found myself unconsciously singing it this morning as I woke up. Of course I immediately applied the content of this song to Serene, as this is just such a articulate expression of love.

However as I repeat the chorus of this song in my mind and allowing my emotions consume me; I notice my thoughts starting to take on another dimension. I was reminded of the time when I decided to follow God wherever He directs me; to forsake my reputation and to hide behind that of the Cross. This memory draws out from me much more emotion than I thought it would. I suppose that the emotions that are deeply graved in my heart was very aptly expressed through this chorus.

For the Christians, the way each believer love one another is just a representation of their love for God. For example, if one believer backstab others with malicious intent, onlookers can be certain about the backstabber’s lack of love in his or her commitment with God. It is understood by most, that in order for the Church (meaning the Christians) to love, they must first understand their own commitment to Christ. I do not know about the rest but my commitment to Serene despite our fits and starts find its anchor in my commitment to Christ. If I have not learnt the lesson of commitment in my own relationship with Christ, this relationship with Serene would have ended way back. However, I can say with much conviction that it is because of Christ (which is the grace of God) that our relationship is reaching our first anniversary. May God be praised!

While at the wedding, I was beside Serene; but while doing my devotion, I was beside God. Both of these relationships bear parallel characteristics that are too similar to ignore.