Missionary
by Matt

Even though ministry here is packed, I’m actually enjoying it very much. Life and Ministry here is like a mission trip in a mission trip. Its like for me, I’m based in Kathmandu but I go out to the villages for weeks at a stretch. After that its back to Kathmandu then go out some where else again. Much time is spent on traveling, teaching, preaching. I love it! The (unclean?) food, the bumpy rides on top of buses, the uphill downhill hikes, watching stars lying on top of hay, the people; I love them all!
When I evaluate my gifting and the way I was brought up, I was surprised to figure out that I am made for such missional living. Even the village people and my translator were surprised that I can take whatever they give me. I thanked God that when I was young my mom forced me to eat everything (except chili). On top of that, somehow I have no travel sickness (in fact, I love the curvy bumpy roads), my stomach is strong enough to eat and drink their things, I can preach in moment’s notice, I blend-in fast, and I can join the dots to figure out what people are thinking and saying in Nepali. My translators told me many times that I am built for Nepal.
I guess God’s purpose of bringing me here is accomplished. He has shown me what He wants me to do in the future and he has opened a door for me. I have always been wondering where God would place me after I graduate since there was never a connection of belonging in the Grace office. No matter how I square myself I do not seem to fit their work culture and ministry nature. I actually find me dumbing myself down when working with some people in the office. It is not the that anything is wrong with the office. I do not think people there actually mean malice. I guess the culture is something unconsciously created. I guess I am not their type either. The most amazing thing is that when I told the missionaries here in Nepal what I just wrote prior, they understand me totally and ditto-ed. Coolz! I’m not alone. I thought I was the only weird problem-ed one when I was in Singapore.
Anyways after I came back from five days of village life in Dolakha, I met Ps. Matthew Wai and his wife Lydia in Kathmandu. They are here for a teaching trip and I am to assist Ps. Matthew in teaching. So when we met, they chatted with me during dinner. I was so surprised at the topics raised they raised.
1) “Is this what you want to do? If yes, then I would be able to work out something for you. I will talk with you soon.” Ps. Matthew Wai
2) “It is very important for a Minister to be married; if you do, your wife is your protection. Do you have a girlfriend?” Lydia Wai
Oh mans, I almost fainted at the questions. But then those were the top two issues that I have been thinking about lately too. So I took time to ask Lydia why she chose Ps. Matthew in the beginning… and I asked Ps. Shu Eng how she manages her marriage and family when she herself is out of the house on teaching / supervisory trips all of the time. These are the things I needed to know and I guess God has put me in the right place at the right time for all of them to be answered.
God has still not put in my heart any specific country, but now I am clear without a shadow of doubt of what I want and about my choices. At least now I know where to drive my energy with regards to ministry focus and hmm… love life? Ha.

very very cool stuff!
i identify with many things you say in this post, although i can’t help but compare your Nepal experience and mine and find a tinge of jealousy in my heart at what an adventure you’re having, and what fulfillment you are receiving from your ministry and the people you minister to! pastor matthew’s “i can work something out for you” sounds very exciting too :)
though jealousy aside, i really am happy for you.
i can’t wait to hear about your journey, what God has shown you, and how God has brought you to these decisions / revelations. when you get back, we MUST meet to talk!
hi. I chanced on your blog by accident. Out of curiosity, I was wondering… were you once an anti-christ, or atheist?
Because I read in one of your blogs how your friend, velve long, as a sounding board for you…
so, now that you are a christian, is your friend still an atheist?
ana
Hey Ana, I was brought up in a Christian home. I met my atheist friend when I was in Design School. He basically debunked all the answers I gave him (when he challenged my faith) saying that I was a parrot because all I know was to copy what my pastor told me. It was then that I realized that I have always been doing what my parents told me to do. In fact, I thought that I was believing in my parent’s God, not my own. So I took it upon myself to go on a journey to search for my own God. I ended up finding my own conviction in what I believe in now – Christianity.
I have not been in contact with my friend for the past few years. But judging from how anti-christian he was, I think he might still be an atheist.